However, it is acceptable to enjoy the serenity and quiet of being alone, but not acceptable to allow yourself to get enslaved by the gloom of silence. Shiver with contentment as you gaze out to sea and reminisce on the events that have molded your life. All of these contradictory emotions are intertwined like webs of confusion. In the shadows, you reach out for a hand, remembering the security you once felt. You're looking for a connection you've lost because you're feeling so mentally disoriented.